Packaged with worry and anxiety is guilt.
While I’ve done my battle against anxiety and won (take that! ZAP!*#@ #$*POW!*#@) I do come from a long line of worriers.
I married a non worrier. Talk about balance.
But for the most part, I’ve tried to conquer worry because the Bible is pretty darn clear on what to do with worry.
Don’t.
But the other day I said to my hubster, “I think I struggle with guilt.”
Not because I’m doing anything “wrong.”
But because I’m not doing anything right. You know?
I don’t always eat right.
Still carrying that extra 15.
Don’t go to the gym enough.
Take too long to write my novels.
I don’t use all of my time wisely.
I forget to practice the piano.
Don’t pray enough. Don’t fast enough.
Don’t read enough.
Bla, bla, etc, etc….
Am I the only one?
I never thought about guilt before as an anchor… not unless I know I did something wrong.
But I realize, “Wow, I feel guilty. A lot.”
Beneath the surface. Nothing tangible. Just the guilt of “Not good enough.”
So, what do I do?
I KNOW what to do.
Run in the opposite direction.
Don’t let “guilt” have a foothold.
Either do better at my goals or change my goals.
I love this verse, 1 John 3:21 — Beloved, if our heart does not condemn us, we have confidence before God…
There’s no point in guilt.
So why tango with it?
Is there a “thing” you wrestle with? What are you doing to kill it with truth?
Get a verse and proclaim it.
That’s what I’m doing!
Guilt Smuilt. See ya!
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Exactly Rach . . .! I try to do something that I feel I should foo, like dust or something. If it hits @night I have to read Scripture/pray. Haven’t we prayed to break that generational thing??
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I know Mom! We should! I think guilt is a subset of worry and anxiety!
BE GONE!!
AMEN!!
This post identifies something that I feel all the time but couldn’t pin down. I always feel like I’m not enough. At the gym, I could have done more. In law school I was miserable because I hated it and there was the feeling of “I could have studied more” because it NEVER ends. You could have all of your homework done and cases read for the entire week ahead but you could still always grasp the concepts better. It just never ended, and it was impossible to do something non-school related and not feel guilty about it. I think I make up things to feel guilty about, but I can’t help it. I wish it was easier to quit doing it, but I’ve done it for so long I can’t imagine not being this way!