Diary of a Writer: Break Off Disappointment! You Are Appointed.

Rachel Hauck writing, Writing LIfe 2 Comments

UnknownThis time last week, I was arriving home from 12 days on the road.

I’d been to a meeting at my publishers, then to teach at a writers retreat followed by teaching and speaking at a writers conference.

I had a blast. Lived in grace. But I was glad to be home to my hubby and puppy.

But this week, I crashed a bit. Some things happened, observations made and I felt… disappointed.

It really sank in when I read a two-star review of Once Upon A Prince on Goodreads. The reviewer gave a detailed review, but she didn’t seem to get what I was trying to do.

Or, I didn’t convey some part of the story well. And FYI everyone, I didn’t watched the Prince & Me until I started the book and only to make sure I didn’t mimic the movie.

I wasn’t going for a Prince & Me reduex.

Goodreads can a brutal review site.

One Dining with Joy review went like this, “I didn’t have time to read this book so I gave it to my friend to read and she said it was horrible. The dialog was awful.”

Br-rrutal. And dialog is my strength. Or so I believe. Authors have a heart you know. We bleed when cut. It’s too much to bear at times, to read reviews of our babies.

So, I’ll confess, I was feeling… disappointed. Losing heart. Contemplating… quitting.

But If I don’t write, what would I do?

On my way to church this morning, the Holy Spirit tapped my heart. Disappointed is to lose sight of being “appointed.”

Jesus said this, “You did not choose Me but I chose you, and appointed you that you would go and bear fruit, and that your fruit would remain, so that whatever you ask of the Father in My name He may give to you.” John 15:16

Hebrews 3: 1-2 “Therefore, holy brethren, partakers of a heavenly calling, consider Jesus, the Apostle and High Priest of ourconfession; He was faithful to Him who appointed Him, as Moses also was in all His house.”

God appoints us to our destiny. He appoints us to bear fruit. To good things. To a life abundant — John 10:10.

When we are disappointed, we lose connection with God’s appointment for our hearts, for our lives and the hope we have in Him is broken.

We have to break off disappointment, fight it, and boy, does it like to settle in, settle down, and settle on.

We must choose God’s appointment for us.

We have to verbally, prayfully, mindfully agree with God’s Word and truth. It doesn’t matter how we feel, it matter what He says.

The writer’s life is full of highs and lows, and many mundane days in between. It’s easy to give into disappointment.

But those things don’t matter. What matters is what the Lord’s appointment! We must agree with Him. Not our situation. Our emotions. Not the past.

But here’s where disappointment says, “You know I’m right.” Our past, our track record, all the hope deferred, the disappointment upon disappointment life dealt our way, and we begin to believe more in “it” than in the truth.

If in the past, you never got the raise why should you get one in the future? If your finances are a mess, why should they get straightened out this time?

We all have those lists. I know I do… did. Working on tearing it up. A past disappointment was sinking me.

Thank goodness for my hubby and the amazing Susan May Warren for kicking me back into play.

And for the ever loving, ever present Holy Spirit who tapped my heart and said, “You are appointed.”

And so are you! Break off disappointment. Believe what God says about you!

Do you have any testimonies of God turning disappointment into joy? Success?

 

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  1. Rachel, I’m sitting here with tears in my eyes. I can’t tell you how many times your words have hit me smack-dab in the heart. Since coming home from DT I’ve been weighed down with an incredible burden of “is this what I’m supposed to be doing?” “Does God take pleasure in this work, or should I be doing something more “important” for the Kingdom” and on and on and on.

    I’ve been seeking God’s Word like crazy, praying, pondering – and tonight He reminded me of a truth He revealed to me a couple years ago. He was the First Fruit of all Creation, the Seed of Heaven, sent to Earth to be planted and to grow – and when I received Him in my heart, He planted that very same Seed there. Like an acorn, with an entire Oak tree hiding in it’s depths, so is the Seed planted in my heart, within it is all of Heaven – all of God’s power and majesty. As it grows, it bears Fruit in my life, Fruit I am asked to offer to those around me. Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness and self-control. When I bear that Fruit, the Seed within it is planted into the hearts of those I feed it to. And that is how His Kingdom grows. It’s what He’s called me to do with my writing, with being a mom, a wife, a friend, a neighbor…

    So many of the scriptures you shared above confirm that we’re appointed to bear the Fruit! You spoke truth to me – truth God wanted to remind me of again, so I knew He had spoken it. Thank you for your sensitive heart, Rachel, and for sharing what God has appointed you to share. You’re an incredible blessing.

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      Gabrielle, what a great inspiration you are! Such truth you shared. You are truly an oak tree with all kinds of depth and reach, and growth and fruit to bear! His plans are good for you! I loved hearing your story at DT.

      You know, I prayed for God to confirm my desire to write, and He did! He will confirm it for you over and over. But, I sort of think He has… just keep going forward one step at a time!

      With Love,
      Rachel

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